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From: Carron
Date: 02/12/03
Time: 19:56:14
Remote Name: 203.96.199.193
I must say that this website is probably the only oasis I have.
Coming off this drug is probably the most lonely process ever. Trying to explain how it feels to others is just hopeless, and I'm feeling utterly alone in this nightmare. I've now resorted to just saying "I'm fine" to parents, sister and co-workers. In the meantime I have chronic diahorea and nausea, extreme nightsweats, where I wake up thinking that I've wet the bed, my sheets are sopping wet, and I'm freezing cold. The Brain "zap" thingies are the worst, coming on every 5 seconds or so. Especially in public. I knocked into numerous displays stands at the supermarket on Friday and feel like such a freak. My lips go numb, my arms get numb and my hands tend to flick out on their own.
Mostly it's the nausea. I've had liver trouble my whole life, post Paxil, and know what jaundice feels like. This is a different kind of nausea. It comes in waves, turning and churning your stomach.
I've been reading up on the FDA and NZ distributors pages, and still the side effects and withdrawals of these drugs are not detailed enough. Besides feeling utterly suicidal and hopeless, and wanting to shave my head - craving that the most - it more a feeling of alone. I feel that the withdrawals haven't been listed sufficiently, and general public aren't aware of these effects. I guess it would just help my family to understand what I'm going through. My father keeps on dismissing me, and my mother tells me that I really picked a bad time to do this, just before Xmas, it will make everyone uncomfortable. I guess what they don't understand is when you make the decision to finally come off this damn thing, that it's a very big deal. Not something you can just decide on.
I'm coming off slowly. Dropped another 5mg per day. I started Aropax 3 years ago, on 20mg, within 3 months I was on 40mg. I've now successfully dropped to 20mg. Slowly. But, now I've dropped another 5mg, and the last two days have been hell. I can't sleep, keep still, my head is buzzing, and I want to vomit constantly.
Feel like I really need to talk to someone. Something I probably should have done 3 years ago.
All I can say, is if anyone is just starting to take this drug now, STOP.
Also, if anyone has any source for detailed withdrawal symptons, maybe I can pass that info onto my family.
Thanks for this site, without it, today would be a complete nightmare.