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From: Dan to Steve,Suzy, Rottewell
Date: 30/07/03
Time: 12:50:57
Remote Name: 81.107.232.205
Thanks for your responses. It's very hard to describe the feeling of depersonalisation & the accompanying lack of enthusiasm in just about anything to one who has never suffered it - they generally look at you like you're loopy or tell you to pull yourself together (oh, if it was that easy...). I've had it a few times before now, the first time I really remember being early-late 1996 and it DID go away for a few years before returning some time later. It tends to come on mainly when I am jobless/socially isolated but I think this recent attack has definitely got something to do with me quitting my fluoxetines. I keep getting the feeling my brain has been altered permanently in some way by the tablets but it might just be blind panic. It's weird cos my memories of the last 2.5 yrs on meds are kind of artificial - there is not much emotional attachment there and as I find my mind returning to (ab)normal, it is finding it hard to re-cope with a lot of the returning feelings that the prozac covered up - sort of feels like my brain is shell-shocked. Perhaps it's just that I have a lot of time to over-analyse the problem and exacerbate it even more??
I guess the best thing is to soldier on and hope for now,keep a bit of confidence that the depersonalisation will eventually sod off (because it generally does, it just doesn't seem that way when you're slap-bang in the middle of a bout of it, especially if you don't know how long that bout is going to last.)
Regards,
Dan
PS I have started drinking orange juice instead of tea/coffee a fair bit throughout the day and it seems to up my mood a bit.Hope this helps.